Grover is five. FIVE!

Grover 5
Sorted

I had a disagreement with Mum late last week. She was adamant Grover’s birthday was today. I was equally adamant it was tomorrow. I had to check his birth certificate. Yes, it does appear, he was born on the 2nd of July, not the third.

I do not find it hard to believe this happened five years ago, becoming a mother to four children broke me big time for quite some time. If you want to really see the cold hard reality of new motherhood just go read any number of the posts I wrote in July 2007, it’s not pretty.┬áTo be honest, it makes me sad. I remember Grover arriving and me basically not being able to enjoy him, relax, recover or draw breath until I had a breakdown in May 2008. And even then that was hardly the kind of drawing of breath I had needed or imagined. Reading those posts I see how stressed I was, how tenuous my sanity must have appeared (and was) and how it was directly reflected in him. Poor little mite.

But here he stands, tall, brash, hilarious, stubborn, independent and wild. We’ve got a whole lifetime ahead of us but for some reason I feel like I’m finally drawing that elusive breath.

2012

Felix and Grover
Clearly related

 

2011

Grover's 4th b'day
Clearly brothers

 

2010

Grover is 3
Three.

2009

 

Kim and Grover 4July09
Two.

2008

Grovey is 1
One.

2007

Just out
Just out.
Band of Brothers
Band of Brothers
37 and a half weeks 9June07
He was in there for another month after this photo

38 minus 6.7

So dudes, it was my birthday on Wednesday (8 December if you, you know, need to diarise for next year) and I had an absolutely lovely day. There were not presents as such*, finances being in a particular category known as ‘dire’, but the delicious messages of birthday wishes and just having a very chilled day (as opposed to the current daily status report of ‘frantic) was just what I needed.

38.

I’m not one of those to feel dread or refusal-to-acknowledge about getting older, I for one know that what I have learnt over the years and how I have changed has all been for the better and at 38 I can say that I probably am my most content. Oh sure, the money thing is harrowing to say the least but I have spent time this year hatching a plan to eradicate lessen that issue in 2011 and as we have been in similar states of financial woe before I know that this too shall pass.

As most of you know, this year has not been without it’s challenges: finding a high school for Oscar; waiting to see if he got accepted to the High School of Awesome; Mum having a hip replacement; Oscar’s bi-lateral ankle surgeries and 6 weeks in a wheelchair and three months rehabilitation; Mum falling over; Chef losing his job; Mum needing another hip replacement; Chef’s new Job of Awesome but salary reduction; the arrival – and ongoing STILL – of whooping cough along with all the other sundry hiccups that come in a household spanning three generations.

But I would actually say this has been a fantastic year. I know.

We have a whole new team of specialists and allied-health professionals working with us and Oscar, we’ve had myriad new opportunities and activities for Oscar, Mum’s on the mend, Chef is the happiest and most engaged I have ever seen him in a job, the boys kill me every day with their flux of attempting to kill or play with each other, Chef and I are as committed to each other as ever and we are surrounded by beautiful friends and family.

Life is good.

The only aspect of me that was doing my head in was my weight and the severe state of self-loathing I was in. At the first sign of warmer weather this Spring I started to have real anxiety attacks about it. I spent several weeks hating myself all while shovelling more food into my mouth and drinking even more alcohol because yeah, that’s an awesome response to health issues and weight management.

Then a few Twitter friends started a group geared to losing 8kgs in the 10 weeks leading up the Christmas. I thought, this is it. This is what I need. So I joined up.That was seven weeks ago – or thereabouts. I also started the C25K program – 9 weeks of getting me off the couch and able to run 5kms.

So here I am, into week 6 of the program. This week saw me run for 20 minutes without stopping – including doing so along a road that was going uphill.

All up I’ve lost 6.7kgs and am feeling all the better for it. I like myself again. I have some very real goals more related to fitness than weight loss and I am feeling good.

And isn’t that what it’s all about?