The morning routine
6am up, shower, get dressed
Get Oscar up, showered, dressed – how easy those five words sound
Take thyroid meds
Breakfast for Oscar, lunches for everyone, dishwasher emptied, first load of washing on (if it didn’t got on while Oscar was in the shower)
7am Oscar out the front ready for his transport – I really try to have us out there after one particularly foul neighbour once berated our previous driver for tooting his horn at such an early hour.
Back inside someone else is normally up by now – breakfast rounds, more getting dressed scenarios, sometimes I even get to sneak a sit down snuggle with little people here.
Sometime in here is finally an hour since I took my thyroid meds and I can have breakfast and a cup of tea. Take my 500 other drugs.
7:30 Felix out the door
I have no idea what happens to the next almost hour and a half but I do know it rarely involves me sitting down relaxing. First load of washing gets hung out.
8:50 Jasper to school and Grover to pre-school on Mon – Wed
Second load of washing hung out
I then worked, part of which involved talking to two scientists about marine climate environment for just over an hour. Have I mentioned how much I love this job of mine? LOVE.
This afternoon was then Felix to rugby to play with the As – he was so chuffed to be called up (a certain number of players can play up or down in the comp as reserves for teams who are down players). While they lost (OH BOY they were so gutted, it was heart wrenching) the coach said he was really pleased with him, that he did what he asked him to do and he’ll be asking for him in their reserve line-up for the finals games. His own Division 2 team have their first semi-final on Sunday. I’m already tense. Have I mentioned how much Felix loves his rugby and how much we therefore do too?
But my GOD it was cold. Our home field is on the hill heading up to the Bilgola Bends with stunning views out over the ocean – lovely in summer with cooling ocean breezes I imagine. Baltic in winter.
From there we had major special treat of produce from a Trans Fat Food Giant and then headed up to the Aquatic Centre in the hope of seeing Felix’s best mate play his second game ever of water polo. We arrived just in time to see them leaving the building. Not to worry, another time.
9:55 – three children only went to bed about half an hour ago. Â I’ve sorted and put away some of the three loads of washing I also got done today but am now to bed. Â I’m going to Tough Mudder Bootcamp in the morning. The first time in three weeks. I had a goal of not missing one session but my brain decided otherwise.
As you can probably tell I am feeling a WHOLE lot better. I am the poster child of how a very bad situation can be salvaged very quickly through excellent psychiatric care, a strong support network and some really good drugs. I can not believe where I was a week and a half ago and yet I so very can.
I need you all to know that your words of encouragement, your SUPPORT were a critical component to me getting through those hideous few days.
I realise now that those hideous few days had probably been brewing since Oscar was in hospital in May and that the psychotic episode triggered by a reaction to new medication was really just the straw that broke the camel’s back. I can see it so much clearer now just how much energy I was expending on keeping ‘it’, me, together over the last few months.
So here I am and yesiree, I am enough.