About 56 hours to go. 56 long arduous hours…

Oh dudes, school holidays are finally biting me on the arse. I believe this is because my father and stepmother actually performed the outrageously charitable act of taking ALL of them from last Sunday to this Wednesday.

Yeah, absence doesn’t make the heart fonder so much as it highlights how fucking hard re-entry is.

The moments before we were getting into the car had me in one of those maternal meldowns – the one where you can’t even blame PMT.

The one where you yell so loud and long and at such a pitch your throat goes scratchy.

The one where once you’re in it your internal auto-pilot is yelling, ‘abort abort ABORT,’ but it’s too late. The eject button has failed and everyone is heading for a big fiery crash of emotional annihilation.

Needless to say, on the way to the drop-off there was a lot of remorse on my part.

Lots of reassurance that yes, I would most definitely be picking them up.

That of course I don’t regret having had children and that my daydreams of a life without children are rare and never as fulfilling as my life with them.

I used my own poor poor behaviour to show just.how.awful.it.is when someone says they hate you, when really they just hate what you’re doing, or saying, or not doing. Or saying.


God knows if they heard any of it.

Because I then swallowed some of my own advice and showed them I was sorry and loved them.

Yeah yeah, I bought them McDonald’s.






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  • Linda

    also been there, done that

    ….on more than one occasion

    the last time was yesterday

    the ‘child’ who pushed my button is 21! shit, shit, shit.

    • that doesn’t bode well. I’ve got 17 years until Grover is 21. Shit shit shit.

  • As SOON as we arrived home yesterday I was SHOUTY. Shouty at Rob, at the girls, screaming at them for screaming at each other. Re entry was awful.

    56 hours MOFO…I FINALLY have myself some freedom from one. Bring that shit on.
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  • Kill

    Today I threatened that if the room was not fully tidied in ONE HOUR (I was quite shouty) I would ring all three girls booked for the birthday sleep over next saturday night. I have their phone numbers ready to go.

  • Oh love, I’m not looking forward to sending mine all back to school. JW had her first day of pre-school yesterday and I was counting down the hours til I could get her back. I think there’s something wrong with me. xxx
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  • School time can’t come back fast enough. I don’t have little ones at home, my baby is 30, but I’m looking forward to NOT seeing any more snotty nosed whiners at the checkouts.
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  • 🙂 mmmm.. I was reminiscing with my mum about one of those lovely car rides when I was a child. I got dropped by the side of the road and walked 6km home through Brisbane city. I get it now. I don’t agree. But I get it.
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  • Paola

    See, I don’t even have McDonald’s.
    SO it’s just yelling, getting angry, more yelling, threatening, tears, YELLING … maybe sometimes a hint of remorse.
    No McDonald’s.