A big day.

Somehow this:

turned into this:

I know! HOW THE HELL DID THAT HAPPEN. Well a hell of a lot of angst was involved, a fair amount of nights lying awake, a shitload of therapy, several snake0il dabblings and in the case of the parents a significant consumption of alcohol. That I know. But we’re here! We made it to the next BIG milestone.

High School.

Most of you are aware that Oscar is attending St Edmund’s School in Wahroonga. A special ed high school of the most special order. Go visit that website and tell me you’re not moved. Inspired. Blown away.

Yesterday was Day 1. Yesterday was also 4o+ degrees celcius. Oscar doesn’t do heat well so it was that more than anything else I was worried about.

More than the fact he’d been up at 11pm asking if it was time to get ready, then up at 3 and by my bedside showing me he was all dressed in his uniform and ready to go, and then, well, that was it. He was up at 3am.

He couldn’t eat and anyone who knows Oscar will know that speaks volumes about the kid’s nervous excitement.

His bus was due at 6.50am. Of course it arrived at about 7.25am.

Meet Mrs J. Mrs J has been hanging around with the special kids too long so talks to everyone as if they were special. A few times I felt like saying, ‘no, no, it’s my son with the brain injury not me’. Imagine one of those filibustering creatures who flap around in mass confusion while trying to create the pretence she knows exactly everything that’s going on. Seriously that Oscar even makes it to school let alone home from it is evidence greater forces are at work here than the law of physics.

And then, just like that, he was off!

I must say I did not shed a tear. I did not come undone. I was pretty relieved actually. AND MAN did I enjoy the silence that followed for the rest of the morning.

Then, at about 2pm, in the middle of Myer in Chatswood where we were hanging out in air-conditioning I turned to Chef with a quiver in my voice and queried if he thought Oscar would be OK.

Of course Chef looked at me like the bloody idiot I was being and reassured me that yes, Oscar was fine.

And here’s the thing, we had an awesome primary school experience but there was always an element in me of waiting for the phone call about some thing or another. About going on an excursion and would he be OK etc.

But here, at a high school specifically for kids just like Oscar? I have implicit trust and complete piece of mind. I mean, complete.

And I realised that in the almost 13 years he has been in this world, that was a first for me.

and just like that he was home.

A big day for all of us.


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  • Mrs Woog

    Not a big day….. A big fucking huge day. I do not think I need to say anything else…… Except…ONWARDS xoxox

    • Indeed. And dude, I was cheering on Mighty Jack as he begins his foray into the education world. Amazing times huh.

  • tc

    that is all sorts of awesomeness

    thanks for sharing it!

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  • Mags

    Kim. I actually don’t know what to say to you. There is a part of me that relates absolutely to everything you are writing. But I am a sister, not a mother. And in that sentence hangs a universe of difference. My brother is ‘autistic’ for want of a more accurate label…Everything you write on your marvelous Oscar resonates. Onward!

    • Here’s the thing. It doesn’t matter if it is your son, your brother, your cousin or the child of a close friend, having a child with special needs touches far more that the immediate family. And raising a child with special needs requires a community of support and input. My life is what it is – rich, challenging, rewarding, harrowing, exhilarating – because of having a child like him.

  • tamika

    hey oscar did a good job at school and hope he does good and cleanss up some more awards

  • Yay!!! So glad it went well. I just know that he, and you, will LOVE it.
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  • I just want to run over and hug you – both of you.

  • jac

    Yay! That’s all.

  • Paola

    Pics speak more than words and he looks happy! THat’s all it counts, isn’t it.

  • That sentence you wrote about it being a first for you… my heart went out to you.

    I’m glad he had a good day.
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  • You might not have shed a tear.

    So I have.
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  • I’m so excited for you and the family and particularly Oscar. What a fucking HUGE day.
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  • Kim,

    I’ve only just started following your blog but I will say that your posts on Oscar ALWAYS move me.

    Big congrats and a HUGE well done to your boy on his first day.

    Grace x
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  • Leanne

    I always feel a little bit sad when it’s the first day, even when the 14yr old, 5ft 11″ tall, sullen teenager stalks off down the road to his bus……then I do a big fat happy dance all over the house ๐Ÿ™‚
    Good work Oscar – enjoy!….oh, and take care of your shoes boys – man I hate buying boys shoes! Sorry, but the girl has been so much nicer with hers (so far).

  • Just found this post. love it. very well written and inspiring ๐Ÿ˜‰

    – tork
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